I Should Really Use This Thing More

I can't seem to merge all the facets of my personality for some reason.... I'm not sure why this is, but I can't seem to use one blog to write about all the things I like.

I have a lot of interests. Subsequently, I have a lot of blogs... if I sit and think about it...

I have a gaming commentary blog (vox), a doll blog (LJ), two second life blogs from when I used to play religiously (blogger), a deviant art I don't use for my art, and a non-online diary that I keep for my personal thoughts. Phew. I think that's it. Oh and this one, which is I suppose the closest to a 'personal' published one that I have. But I might 'specialize' in one of my interests... not too sure yet. I should really use it more, in any case.

I don't like to merge these worlds. I don't like to write about anything other than what the blog is originally intended for, really. I don't like to use filter groups to put all that on the same blog. I'm not saying I don't like to read blogs that are like that, because I do, and I think it's fine. So why am I closet schizophrenic? I have no friggin clue. It's confusing sometimes, it's like I'm trying to be all these different people at once. Maybe I kind of am. When I am active in one place, I'm inactive in another place. It's almost like I'm someone else. Maybe I'll merge these worlds together when I finally finish my site. Who knows.

So, I haven't quite decided what angle this blog is going to have; which facet of my personality. I'm thinking toned down personal life, but not sure. Given I'm an introverted extrovert, it's going to be difficult, but here goes.

Yesterday I went shopping in the city. We swung by Morning Glory, (!) (No, I don't know whether the name of that store is intentional) which thankfully is still there. Funfair and the other cute stationary shops are all gone now. So anyway, at MG I noticed they're stocking CDs now. Because they're a Korean company/chain, they had K-Pop, namely, Big Bang CDs. Gaspness. I was going to get one, but then I got swayed by the price tag of another band, DBSK, that had like 38 songs on it for the same price as the BB one. Okay, it was that and the pretty cover as well, honestly. I never really sat and looked at them, nor did I really know the members like I do with Big Bang... for a few reasons. Mainly because I'm not an obsessive fan, who sits there and memorizes Taeyang's favourite food and browses sites for interviews and youtube and such. I honestly am just into the music and don't tend to worry about the members all that much. And secondly, because I tend to find my AsiaPop by looking up a user-- usually, anyone that likes a group I like can lead me to other groups/music I haven't heard before, and through that I download anything that sounds interesting. Anything I really like I tend to look into a bit more. That's how I found Big Bang originally, and this is why even though I had a few DBSK/TVXQ (et al) songs I had never actually looked up the members. But anyway, I bought the DBSK CD, remember? And the CD has a booklet in it; with band photos... and it would be weird not to look at it, right? So, I thought 'oh, hey, they're cute,' which came out more like 'Phwoar.' Which then lead me to youtube.

Bad bad idea. One word: ...Mirotic.

Great. Now I feel like a dirty old woman after watching that. I need to go un-fluster myself. I don't think I'm a prude, and I don't get embarrassed easily but that clip + translation almost made me blush.I think I kinda know how guys feel when they watch women groups like the Pussycat Dolls use their sexuality like a weapon, and why they're so powerless against it. There was a kind of instinctual, 'I can't take my eyes off this thing' effect going on there. I wonder if that's how Peahen's feel when Peacocks court them... SIGH. Where's MY Peacock? Err... Wait. That sounds wrong, so wrong.

I also bought the Twilight ripoff inspired book, Evernight by Claudia Gray, on the recommendation of someone at work.  I haven't read Twilight, for a few reasons a) I'm sick of it, b) I don't like Stephanie Meyer c) What I have read of it, it sounded super corny. However, I, like other repressed and deluded women, can't go past a hot immortal boy story. So I decided to start with something less mainstream. I think I'm still going to watch the Twilight movies though, because I liked them okay-- even though I think the first one didn't make a lot of sense, that there was a lot I was missing... bla bla nobody cares.

Well, more nerdistic musings tomorrow, maybe. Or maybe not.